17 Months continued….

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Thanks for bearing with me on this. I am a newbie….I know, your shocked! When you lose your thoughts its hard to move forward with consistency. My thoughts for my last post were finished but were lost due to my rookie experience with WordPress. I vow to improve!

Recapping 17 months, I was posting our journey over the last year and a half and looking for positives in hopes of detaching from the political whirlwind.

Our relationship is the best it has been in an awfully long time. We have rekindled a connection that was once lost in a haze of his altered reality and my confusion. We enjoy each others company. He has come out of his self-seclusion and is enjoying the company of others. There has also been a reparation of relationships with his sister and other family members. He’s different, not angry, distrustful or hateful as he once was. He has a true concern for others now and is kind and even fun to be around.

Before Covid-19 hit, I decided we needed a pet. I felt a need to introduce a breath of fresh air into the routine existence we were already experiencing. I searched the animal rescue sites until I found a picture of a dog that I immediately connected with. So I set out to adopt her. We learned that she had been dropped off at a kill shelter as a puppy, adopted then abandoned and kept in a kennel for most of the next four years. She had been in jail, so to speak. She was perfect! I named her Little Orphan Annie the Rescue. She has an Instagram page!

Truly when I see a bumper sticker that reads “Who rescued who?” I completely get it. She is a welcome gift that has brought joy to both our spirits. She always makes us smile.

I mentioned in my last post that my son had several interviews for jobs. Employment is an important factor for returning to society and becoming independent. This was one of my original goals for him. This Monday, he was hired and began working. We were able to get a loan for a work vehicle and had a small inheritance from his Gram for a down payment. He had another interview on Tuesday and was hired at a new construction company that is just getting established. He will be working with them on weekends as well.

I am a very prayerful person. I, and others have doubted if I was doing the right thing letting him back in my home and my life. It was an excruciating decision I had to make. I asked myself the question, “If a mother doesn’t help their child, who will?” It has been very painful, especially in the early stages of his recovery. The goals were met with unending perseverance despite many challenges in paperwork, finances, health and a depressed individual that had no hope for any good outcome. I didn’t give up. I gave it to God and did my best to be in peace.

Step by step you continue climbing the lift hill of the roller coaster. As always, there will be ups and downs. Your ride continues with caution. When you reach the top, what comes next? That depends on the kind of coaster your riding. Is it a twister, full circle, an out and back, a loop maybe a boomerang?

Hopefully, its not a shuttle coaster. They proceed forward, stop, head backwards and go through the same course. We have ridden a shuttle coaster in the past. I’m not willing to get back on that ride. I can only pray that he’s not either.